My Fear - Kaliber 44
What is this world to you?
White gossamer floating, animated by your breath
Yes, just like that
Show me a glimpse of your lips
show me your mind
Maybe my words are not enough
I’m just a tear, just a louse, after all
Scarce black gossamer
Tell me, tell, tell me, tell
I’m simply uncertain, maybe they all lie
Father? Dad? What is your name?
Maybe brother Joka of the holy memory
Knows the answer already
Maybe he does, or maybe not
Maybe he does, does, does, does
Just admit you don’t exist – it’s a legend
Just admit you don’t exist – it’s a legend
Just admit you don’t exist – it’s a legend
Just admit you don’t exist – it’s a legend
The likes of me always die prematurely
People just like me, but they hold a string coloured differently
You think he exists
Because there has to be somebody
Because belief makes life easier
Because it’s easy to believe
Bullshit, they say
See you in hell, see you in hell
She offered me her hand and I will kneel for her
I will fall to my knees for her
Not a word from other people and I figured it out myself
There are so many words about you:
Spoken, written, read out loud
yet I still can’t be sure
Because your existence is shrouded in mystery:
Goodness or villainy
White bright gossamer
Black sticky gossamer
White sticky gossamer
Black pristine gossamer
100 feet above the ground I will reach out my hand
I will speak – having puked out the gag
And it will be my voice, my own Tower of Babel
I will set my own fasting up, I will open the cage
I will look at you with my own eyes, me, with my own eyes
I will look at you not with my mother’s eyes
And I will see something – but perhaps there’s nothing?
Or maybe someone will finally say – it was just a legend
I’m such a louse…brother Joka of holy memory!
And I…and I…and I…
Please give me your hand, please offer your hand
Why is it so obvious to me that you don’t exist
Why is it so obvious to me that you don’t exist
Just be and I will kneel
And please give me your hand
Why is it so obvious to me that you don’t exist
Why is it so obvious to me that you don’t exist
Just be and I will kneel