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Answering these questions and talking about myself sure was fun, thank you all for humouring me :’D

hibikihojou:

the most aggravating fans are the ones that become huge fans of a villainous character but just can’t handle the fact that the villainous character does villainous things and instead said fans invent a million assbackwards headcanons about how the villain is TOTALLY not a villain at all and is some tragic blob where nothing is their fault even up to and including murder and genocide

i am just so baffled by this

(Source: starryflan, via mizax)

erer0r asked: 6. 32. & 49.

6 and 32 were already answered, so:

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

In many ways it is, as I’m still unable to be fully independent financially despite the fact that I have a full time job (economy yeah ye ye). Then again, my mind isn’t preoccupied by dissertation stuff anymore and I’m free to focus on personal projects and myself in general, so it’s nice. Even though I tend to stress about things a lot (mainly the future, but who doesn’t really) I’m more content and confident than I was two years ago, that’s for sure.

kingaofthewoods asked: 77, 47, 34, 10, 6, 102 (I'm more interested about literal butterflies, tbh xD)

 77. Are relationships ever worth it?

Worth what, exactly? C’: I’m not sure I understand the question haha but yeah, I’d say so. Relationships are nice. Unless you can’t really be yourself anymore around the other person (and by that I mean them making constant demands to fix things about yourself that are not broken in the first place), and need to make one-sided sacrifices all the time in order to keep them content, then no because that will only make you miserable in the long run.  It’s better to be alone than to be in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

Constantly, and I wish I could stop. It keeps me up at night and makes it difficult to concentrate  on other stuff because I end up thinking about what-if scenarios at random, and if that crap is not the most unproductive thing to do then I don’t know what is.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

The academic year of 2009/2010. My mind was in a terrible place back then.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2015?

That depends on so many factors, but I sure hope so! I can’t really complain about my current life situation, but I’m not exactly happy with it either. I hope I will manage to find a better job, at least, that would be an awesome change already.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

Carry on My Wayward Son by Kansas; since I now associate it with Supernatural I thought of you, what a coinkidink :P

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? (I’m more interested about literal butterflies, tbh xD)

YES, ACTUALLY. Remember those tacky decorative birds and butterflies on a wire they would sell during the church fair? http://images5.fotosik.pl/370/42c0d793bdb1667e.jpg

My granny used to give me those all the time when I was little and I loved them c’:

Anonymous asked: Such randomness. 2, 12, 22, 32, 42, 52, 62, 72, 82, 92, 102

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

I’d say no, but it really depends on the 18-year-old in question. The almost 9 years age difference doesn’t seem appealing, but hey, that love thingy apparently happens from time to time and it makes people happily disregard these issues so it’s best to never say never, I guess.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

My sister! On the cheek, of course. Unless you mean kissed-kissed then I don’t recall, so probably no.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

It’s really cute if they are guys I actually know. Now that I think about it, I prefer those cute kisses to full on sloppy make out sessions, so yeah.

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

Ah yes, very much so! I don’t find a lot of the ‘scary’ movies scary, though; while I enjoy those as well, I appreciate a movie that manages to actually scare me a lot.

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

At work maybe, yes. If you can even call that hanging out haha

52. Are you nice to everyone?

Depends on  your definition of nice, really; I make a conscious effort to not be an asshole to anyone but I will not pretend to like someone, nor will I take any crap with a smile though. I’m way past that stage of my life.

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

I find it difficult to talk about my feelings, but when it comes to certain events I don’t mind. Although it can depend on the intention of the person who’s asking, I suppose.

72. Can you commit to one person?

I had absolutely no problem with it in the past, so definitely yes.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

Already answered this one.

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

Several, actually!

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

My ex, haha! I’m sure there were others but I’m just not a very amorous person in general.  

monere-lluvia asked: 3, 4, 8, 21, 27, 35, 75, 82 c:

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

When I graduated; I was glad it was over but at the same time the anticlimactic…ness… of it all made me kind of angry and sad in that weird passive way.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

I do that a lot, honestly! I have this tendency to absent-mindedly observe people while I wait for the bus or whatever, and if I’m caught I smile at them. Sometimes they even smile back.

I hope I don’t come off as creepy or rude to those who don’t tho.

8. How often do you listen to music?

As often as I can; I’d say all the time but it wouldn’t be entirely true. I do carry my darling old mp3 player with me everywhere though! I seem to concentrate better when I’m allowed to have music as company but the dumb thing is that I often don’t even realize what’s on - I’m just fully aware of its absence because I find it grating, but if you asked me about the last song that was playing while I was in the middle of a task I probably wouldn’t know.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

The lack of air, that’s what I dislike about this day the most. It’s so hot and stuffy :c

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

My bff, Kinga! ♥

35. Did you have a dream last night?

Oh yeah, I did; it was a strange mix of vividly embarrassing and absurdly stupid and it included some people I know irl and my favourite musician. I’d elaborate but I honestly want to wipe it out of my memory as soon as possible haha. My dreams are usually kind of violent and upsetting though, so even if tonight’s dream wasn’t pleasant it was still a nice change of pace.

75. Did you wake up cranky?

Kind of, yeah; I woke up to my fan not working. I thought it was dead, but it started working again when I lightly smacked it on the side. Huh.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

Oh yeah, this one friend I had years ago. We were really close but our ways parted on a rather sour note. I still have the Charmander playing card he gave me and I carry it in my wallet. I hope life’s treating him well.  

Some real creepy questions, I will answer any.